The raw chemical connection makes no sense. It just is.
We try to distance ourselves from one another but in time find our bodies entwined inhaling the energy of the other like a drug we can not live without.
I have tried to deny our connection in my mind many times, but my heart keeps leading me in a circle back to him each time. He breaks through my walls when his eyes connect with mine. He sees me. There are no rules or predetermined ways in which we are expected to be…we just are.
I close my eyes to join him. His scent lingers tempting me to draw in just one breath and try to walk away. I am unable to inhale his energy and release him. He stands as close to me as he can without touching my skin, making me wonder if he is only within the confines of my mind. I am afraid to reach out and not touch him.
I feel his breath on the side of my mouth, his lips desperately want to kiss mine. The heat of his body warms mine with an undeniable burning desire to have me. I can feel his want twisting and turning into a need, like a turbulent storm brewing with a force that can not be reckoned with. We are standing in the middle, captured by the raw energy neither of us have words for. We have no choice but to ride it out to see where our bodies land.
I open my eyes to see his looking deeply into mine. I am safe and unafraid as his strength reaches around my waist grabbing me forcefully toward him as the world around us spins out of control. His powerful presence releases my fear of the unknown as I surrender to the storm letting go.
Eyes still closed, I awake to the feeling of warm rain splashing on my face, washing down my flesh. As my lashes lift up, my dreamy brown eyes are exposed to him between my legs leaning over me. He is looking right into my soul wondering as am I what just happened.
He frustrated me like never before. He had always run away. It’s how he survives. He refused to acknowledge this fear. He was irrefutably wrong. He viewed the world around him with a skewed perception of reality.
A battle was about to begin igniting a fire that had been smouldering for some time. I was ready to strike the match and toss it at his feet. It was all or nothing. The atmosphere was torrid…
We couldn’t touch if we wanted to, we were like magnets standing side by side. His male energy repelled mine. We were no longer Yin and Yang. His words were sharp and pointed aimed straight at my heart. He was trying to throw me off-balance. I wasn’t going down easy. There was a fire in his eyes I’d never seen before. He was boiling over with passion. He had come ready to spar with one of the best. It took years to prepare armour for battles such as this. I was ready to stand up and face my fears, willing to lose it all.
Our words cut like duelling swords, each one razor sharp…and then the magnet flipped. I caught him looking deeply at my mouth while I spoke. For a split second he was vulnerable. The fire in his eyes morphed from battle to surrender. His eyes anticipated every word that slipped slowly off my tongue past my lips. His ears heard nothing. It was that split second that changed everything. I knew he loved me more intensely than ever before. I had him in that moment. He let his subconscious thoughts slip through the door and I grabbed them tight with both hands. I was about to embark on an adventure I had only dreamt of.
I reached forward to seize the moment, impaling him with every ounce of passion I had left. I grabbed his jaw with both hands and seduced him with my entire being. Undeniable desire exploded like gasoline thrown on a flame. If we could survive this, we could survive anything together.
Our bodies entangled one another with no conscious thoughts. Pure raw in the moment chemistry that had been hidden deep below the surface for far too long. There was nothing subtle about us from that moment on.